Somewhere between Double boob and Empty Cup Syndrome there must be something that fits, right?? Preferably not something ... that will make my breasts look odd, please... (Hunkemoller, I'm talking to you!!)

I'm narrow, tall and curvy... and finding ANYTHING that fits is hard. Ok, perhaps maybe panties.

Actually, my boobies and me have a crappy relationship. I've hated them ever since they started to grow shortly after I turned 11. The combination between one of my first 'training bras' and a too-big school dress (shame I gave it away, it was so big I'd fit it now) lead to bra-peeking at an age where nobody else wore them. They took their time to grow, reaching their full 'potential' when I was 18: 34DD and probably larger at my highest weight; but I didn't stay there for long.

I'm a semi-recovered anorexic; I've started out as a bulimic at the bright age of 14 and that DID affect my growth and development; I stopped growing and developing and it continued during my first bout of recovery at age 17-18; my body WAS very odd through my teenage years because it was stuck between a girl and what was to become a curvy woman. I've managed to reach and maintain a weight and eating pattern that keeps my body healthy enough and my mind out of the freak zone. I have to accept that I have a feminine, curvy body and there's nothing I can do about it that won't have devastating consequences: at my lowest weight I STILL filled out a 32B.

There are times when I'm almost OK with my breasts. But most of the time, I hate them. Finding bras is a nightmare. While I know my breasts are 'normal' I wish they were firmer and perkier. The size has changed a couple of times, and everytime it went UP I was mortified. I was OK with my breast size for a while, and then I switched from paroxetine to sertraline... and sertraline caused them to grow about half a cup... making the bra mission even more impossible because before that I was able to get away with a 32C even though the band would be a bit wide. Sadly, this did not reverse when I quit the anti depressants.


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